I don't know why it is. One of the most difficult parts of the day. Is standing by the platform, and waiting for the train. I am always a little afraid. I will throw myself, in front of the platform. I am writing this to excorcise these thoughts. That have plagued me, for years. It used to be pretty bad on Saturdays, after work. Just before I would go home, and watch Doctor who. It probably does not help, that my brother had a friend, who ended his life like this. Sometimes, I have to hide from the platform. Which is not always possible. Its a little unnecessary terror, in my day

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